Teen story

If you’ve read around, then you should know by now that I’m only in grade 10 and I’m 15 years old. Of course, I still have high school to complete and from their college and grad school. There is only one problem. I have no idea what I want to do with my life, as far as a career. I mean, I like graphic design, but I never thought about taking it up as my lifetime job. To me, it’s only a hobby. Therefore, that option is out the window. Some may say that I’m thinking ahead far too fast, though I think this is the age where I should really start considering the direction I want my life to go in. I say this because, since freshman year, my life has flown by even though I still feel extremely young. It seems that just yesterday I was in middle school, still being watched to the school bus, or being put to bed at night (lol), you know? The typical ‘young days’.

Now it’s like I’m learning to drive, being told I should get a job and doing a lot of the things my parents used to do for me. It’s all kind of weird when I really analyze the situation. By next year, I need to decide which courses I ought to take, to prep me for my major and it’s just like.. I’m at a road block when it comes to what kind of job I’d like to have. For the most part, I like computers, that’s about all I know. But the jobs that involve computers I don’t want anything to do with. Lol. It’s strange I know. Above all things, I want to be a model. I want to live somewhere in Europe and rip the run way. Yes, it’s a dream. So far that’s all it is. To become a model, it’s hard work, and risky at that. If I wanted to be a model, it’d be good to start young…like right out of high school, though that would mean putting my education on hold. What if all fails? Then it’ll just be a mistake made and I’ll be starting school late? I don’t want that to happen, but I do want modeling. It’s so confusing and hard to think about what I would want to do.

I posted the picture (click for full size) just to show my current ’stage’ of life. At the moment I’m maturing physically, emotionally and some what spiritually and it’s going to be a matter of time before I’m on my own. Having facial hair startles me, lol and it’s become annoying now having to have my face shaved every other week. It makes me feel older. That’s a good thing and a bad thing. I want to be on my own, yet I’m afraid. I want to be independent, but can I do it? It’s a scary world, and we all know currently the world it’s in a bitter-sweet state with wars and all. It’s insane. Pretty much all of us in ages from 10-18 or so at the moment are going to be the ones running the world in about 10 years. Us. We’re going to be the adults, and it’s quite weird to think about.

    Just A Few Questions…

  • What do you want to be when you grow up?
  • Are you afraid to be on your own?
  • Any advice for my situation?

If you guys could answer those, they’d help me a lot and I’ll be very appreciative for your input.

Also, I’ve been working on the new layout, I hope you guys like professionalism! Really professional, I might add. Just trying to step my game up! So be on the look out for that. When you’re all done hear, check out Sarah’s pre-made designs at TownDown! Later for now.